The past year = Mostly bad but some good.

Just for the record I’m counting late November 2008 and later as last year, or at least it feels like it to me because that’s when all of the bad started to happen. I’m allowed to add an extra month in there, right?

Bad:

I lost my best friend (late November 2008)

I lost my job (Early December 2008)

I ended up in the ER twice (in April & August).

ER bills= over $5100 because my shitty health insurance wouldn’t help me. I paid almost half so far but it’s pretty fricken hard to pay for the rest without an income.

Feelings of worthlessness, hopelessness, depression, loneliness, & being trapped.

I’ve gained weight

Good:

I finally got to do some traveling (a couple of days in St. Croix, a family vacation in Hawaii, & a weekend trip to South Dakota).

Some good times with friends.

I usually don’t pay any attention at all to New Year’s, it’s just another day. But I really want NEED next year to be better. Please please PLEASE!!!!!! Let 2010 be the year that I find happiness!

I need to find a job, hopefully one worth while that doesn’t make me miserable like my last one.

I want to spend more time with friends and be more social.

I want to do more traveling.

I want to be more self-sufficient and independent.

I need to lose 20lbs.

I want to be happy.